Google Simply Katherine, a Christian on campus: March 2012

Thursday, March 29, 2012

There Were Raccoons in My Bedroom

Pardon the mess.

The Intruders' Entrance

My sister and I were visited by wild raccoons two nights ago. Well, they fell from the ceilings right above our beds. Thank the Lord, we were not actually sleeping while it all happened.

We were in the living room when we heard a big thump in the room. So I went to open the door and peek in. We thought it was a burglar or something. I was so shocked when I saw this giant raccoon panicking trying to open the window. I quickly closed the door again.

I told my sister. We ran outside to see what it was actually doing. Well, obviously it was clawing, destroying the window blind.

But when we were outside looking into the window, this raccoon was staring back at us with both of its paws on the window.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Contemplating Questions

Having a break in my routine ushered me into a deep contemplation. A lot of time I become too busy to stop and consider, to contemplate the nature of my days, my daily activities.

Recently I've been thinking of going back home to settle down and take care of my family, or something like that. I also feel like I would like to travel more and see new happenings, or discover new perspectives. I love to learn new things.

As of now, my days have always been filled with a project for a Christian club on campus, meeting people to have fellowship, shepherding others, and just being spent on various services in the church.

Busy, busy, busy.

People, people, people.

Being Frank with the Lord

Yes, my life has been such. So this Spring break, while I was traveling, I took some time to inwardly pray and look for the Lord's leading.

Where should I be?

What should I be doing?

What's next?

I felt convicted. Maybe I didn't have enough burden to serve Him in a full-time way long-term. Maybe I didn't have the adequate heart to love mankind, unlike the Lord who burns with love for man. Maybe I'm a quitter.

In my fellowship with Christians on Campus throughout the years, I learned that I could be frank, genuine, and honest with the Lord. So instead of fabricating strength, I had to tell the Lord that I was clueless, unclear, and anxious but that I still love Him, I still trust Him, and I still want His very best.

The Lord's Answer

It was in a car ride. I had been waiting on the Lord, holding on to Him, holding on to the fellowship I've had with my companions.

I was reminded of a question that an older brother in the Lord mentioned to me recently, "Katherine, if you only have few years before you become more preoccupied, for instance, you get married and have children to care for, where would you see yourself in those few years?"

Contemplating that question, I realized that I knew exactly where I would like to be found doing. I want to be found serving the Lord with my whole heart, with my whole strength, and with my whole time.

I realized that it's not a sacrifice to serve Him in this way, it's a privilege and an opportunity to be grasped. As time is slipping away, who knows what's going to happen in the future, I would like to grasp the opportunity to waste myself upon Him right now.

At that moment, my inner being began to sing:
I've never been sorry to turn to the Lord.
I've never been sorry to give up my life.
I've never been sorry to give my whole life to the Lord.
I've never been sorry to follow the Lord. 

Monday, March 19, 2012

Up and Running

So I just got back from my Spring break trip. We drove all the way from D.C. to Atlanta for twelve hours on Thursday night, got to Atlanta in the morning and headed to the airport to catch our flight back to Texas.

Long story short, I'm still recuperating from lack of sleep and backache (from sitting so long in the car). This trip was quite heavy-duty.

Overall, I really enjoyed my break. I think we all agree that one of the most memorable places we visited in Washington D.C. is the Library of Congress. 

We went to the viewing area of the Main Reading Room on the top floor. No photography was allowed so I had no record of it but we were standing behind these two tall statues of Sir Isaac Newton and Moses, overlooking the Main Reading Room from a huge window on the veranda (the following photograph is taken from Google Images).

The museum docent mentioned that Sir Isaac Newton and Moses were placed side-by-side to exhibit the fact that indeed science and faith can co-exist. That was just a small finding in the midst of many intricate details of the building but very valuable to me.

I will have to get back with you later on details. Gotta run. Sorry, y'all!

Sunday, March 11, 2012

On the Road to Atlanta and D.C.

Dear all,

I think I should be on the plane by now to my first destination - Atlanta, Georgia. I never pass up the opportunity to travel.

Since my first serious road trip to Yosemite National Park two years ago, my life has never been the same. That trip convinced me that I needed to continually seek for a new, broader perspective of things.

I'm in Control

In my experience, all these travels have humbled me. Often in my daily life, because I get used to living it every single day, I take things for granted.

Everything is so convenient - from the moment I open my eyes in the morning to the time I go back to slumber at night. I can calculate how many minutes I need to spend for each activity. Things are predictable. So I feel like in this personal universe of mine, I'm in control.

Broadening My Vision and My Heart

Traveling sets a new horizon, broadening my being in many ways. In my Yosemite trip, I was fully convinced, indeed all creation testified that "there is God" and that "God loves man."

I mean think about those majestic mountains; the spectacular scenery was too impressive that it became eerie. BUT God chose to dwell within man's innermost being, man's spirit.

My heart was welled up with thanksgiving, love, and praises toward the God "who so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that every one who believes into Him would not perish but would have eternal life" (John 3:16).

A New Horizon

Another trip I had was to Chicago. This was a while back. That travel opened my spiritual eyes concerning the church.

I stayed with a group of Christians who strove to follow the vision of God's purpose and goal in the midst of all their sufferings. Their standing as a testimony of Jesus in Chicago was not extravagant, but it was definitely shining gold.

The church in Chicago was far from being just a piece of physical architecture. The church was the testimony of Jesus in that city.

I witnessed the God who operated behind the scenes, the God who worked all things together for good to those who love Him. And that good is His own heart's desire, His purpose - to build up His church (Matthew 16:18).

These are just few of many experiences that I have obtained through traveling. Long story short, traveling is healthy! 

It is especially beneficial when we get to meet and fellowship with Christians in these different places, who love the Lord and love His church like we do. 

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

"Hang on to my skirt, girls!"

The days have not been smooth-sailing for me. I'm restless within. I can't sort it out and come up with an explanation why this is so. I've been just going to the Lord again and again, asking for an understanding.

In the midst of a sea storm.

Yesterday I picked up the phone and called my companion, Judy. I told her about all these things that bothered me within - the unclarity, the uncertainty, and the indefiniteness I had been experiencing thus far. 

As we talked over the phone, both of us were clear that neither of us had the answer. Have you had such an experience before? 

Yes, seemingly our fellowship was just a waste of time but you know what, that fellowship had actually ushered me into a different realm - the realm of fellowship, the realm of supply, the realm of the Body of Christ.

Judy did not have a "spiritual" answer but she shared with me a story about her children. When the girls were little, Judy used to tell them, "Whatever happens, just hang on to my skirt, girls. Don't ever let go." Judy was always busy running errands so she would take her girls along. The girls were too young to understand what their mother was up to but they would not let go, they would hang on to mother's skirt no matter what happened.

"Sometimes that's what we need to do, Katherine. Just hang on to the Lord. We're like little children who don't understand what's going on but He knows. Just hang on until the time He makes it clear," Judy finished her heartwarming story.

She couldn't see me over the phone but I smiled. All my life, that's exactly how the Lord has been to me. I'm resting in the fact that He is not only my Lord but a loving, caring, protecting, covering, providing Father to me. 

My prayer is "Abba, Father, I'm hanging on to You. I love You and I trust in You. That is all."

Thursday, March 1, 2012

The Cures to Depression and Anxiety (Part 2 of 2)

This is a continuation of my previous post: The Cures to Depression and Anxiety (Part 1 of 2).

The Second Cure: The Word of God

The second practical salvation arrived when that sister read with me Psalm 90 through Psalm 93. Yes, over the phone. We read, declared, prayed over every verse with our whole being. We were vocal, we were bold, we mixed our speaking with faith, we cried out, we pleaded, we praised, we thanked, we called on His Name, we Amen-ed His desires.