Following the Lord and Living to Him
Recently, living my life has been quite challenging (isn't this everyone's story?) I'm the kind of person who wants to excel in everything that I do, but it soon becomes excruciatingly difficult when everything appears to be the first priority. In short, giving 100% at all times, in all things, drains both my mental and physical capacities.
I know time management. The key is to wisely prioritize, right? Yet the main problem is I truly, genuinely, consider that all my responsibilities are equally important. Now what? Not only that, when I managed to drop one of the balls that I've been juggling, I got so condemned, fearing the judgment from others. Sounds like a nightmare, doesn't it? But again, isn't this everyone's story? So it came to a point where I just had to drop everything, talk to the Lord, and then pick up the phone. I called Judy.
I'd have to say I was comforted when she said, "Katherine, you know what, I have the same problem." It didn't stop there though. She continued to share about this practice of following the Lord moment by moment. Our God is the God of measure (2 Corinthians 10:13). Everyday He has apportioned to us our measure, but we will never know what's too much or what's too little unless we ask Him!
Often when we hear about following the Lord, we immediately think about the big decisions in our life.
Yet the most practical, primary matter in following the Lord is actually to live to Him moment by moment.
"Lord, what should I do next?"
"Lord, I'm about to meet this person. What should I say to her?"
"Lord, I'm going shopping. Go with me."
"Lord, I'm sorry but I just can't do this. Help me."
"Lord, I can't bring my body to wake up. Live through this day for me."
As I'm inquiring and conversing with Him, I would take the steps in faith with an endeavoring spirit to attain, fully trusting in Him for what He's doing and has arranged in my day. During the course of the day, if things work out a certain way, I take it from the Lord. If things wouldn't work out in any way, I also take it from the Lord. At the end of the day, there is rest and peace with no condemnation.
Living to Him is to practically live before His eyes, face-to-face with Him all the time.
I'm glad that Judy didn't withhold anything from me because I know that on one hand, this is the highest requirement to live the Christian life. By no means easy! Yet on the other hand, I also know that at the end of the day, this is what's going to save me to the uttermost. Yes, saved from condemnation, comparing myself with others, and even on the other side of the spectrum, saved from languishing with my time.
"And He died for all that those who live may no longer live to themselves but to Him who died for them and has been raised."