I've been reading my last post again and to my surprise, it has helped me quite a bit this week because I was rather thrown into a complex situation, mainly from within.
So basically, the beginning of every school semester is one of the busiest months of the year for me. I'm helping with a Christian club. I have responsibilities and practical services to do. I feel like the Lord is telling me, "Katherine, Katherine, you are anxious and troubled about many things." (Luke 10:41)
But then, when the rubber meets the road, when I do need to bear the responsibility to coordinate and serve with others, I was reminded of the account in the Gospel of John chapter 12. It's an account of the Lord Jesus having supper in Bethany. All the three siblings (Martha, Mary, and Lazarus) were there. Martha was serving. Mary was pouring out her love, all that she had, upon the Lord. Lazarus' presence was in itself a testimony of resurrection because he was raised from the dead.
These three persons are actually three aspects of the Christian living. It's a triangular living. On one hand, I can be serving in a practical way, such as cooking, handing out invitations, contacting people, etc. On the other hand, if my being is poured out only for the work, but not upon the Person, then everything is meaningless, isn't it? I realize that spending time with the Lord is foundational and indispensable. We must value and treasure our time with the Lord, especially when the labor increases.
Lastly, the resurrection life testified by Lazarus is also striking to me. There is only one Person who proclaims Himself as the resurrection and the life, the Lord Jesus. How can I be serving, loving Him, and testifying resurrection?
Resurrection means Christ is living in me and He wants to be the source of my life. Now this is a divine and mysterious statement, but this is our gospel today. I'll continue on my next post.